*Lyrics courtesy of Aloe Blacc’s “The Man”
Well you can tell everybody
Yeah you can tell everybody
Go ahead and tell everybody
I’m the man, I’m the man, I’m the man
Yes I am, Yes I am, Yes I am
I’m the man, I’m the man, I’m the man
….
Somewhere I heard that life is a test
I been through the worst but I still give my best
God made my mold different from the rest
Then he broke that mold so I know I’m blessed.
*Lyrics courtesy of John Legend’s “All of me”
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you
My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
Just some song lyrics that have been stuck with me…
I’ve been researching different prosthetic facilities lately. I didn’t even realize until I started looking into prosthetic facilities that not going back to rehab (for 3? weeks as an in patient) was an option. As I was told by one of the program directors at a facility, you’re not “rehabbing”, you’re learning how to walk again and how to use your prosthetics. Good piece of info to learn because I don’t know if I’d be able to voluntarily check into the hospital/rehab for 3 weeks after being home for months from having checked out of being in the hospital for months! And this would be a good segue into Ben asking if I wanted him to take me to the hospital the other night.
I had my first “bad” night since being home and it had nothing to do with my legs. It was a little past 1 in the morning and we were in bed watching TV when all of a sudden a bad case of (gas) cramps came on. When this happened to me while I was in rehab and I didn’t know what to do (since I can no longer walk things off or curl into a ball..) the nurse told me to lie on my side and that would relieve the pressure. It worked in rehab, but not so much this time. Laying on my side, back, or stomach didn’t help AT ALL. It was now almost 3 in the morning and it just got worse. With the pressure moving up to my lungs making it difficult for me to breathe, Ben asked if I wanted to go to the hospital. I very matter of factly said, “NO!!!, I just want this to go away!!” If while in SO much pain and just the suggestion of going to the hospital resulted in such an adamant no, I don’t know if I can see myself going back to the hospital/rehab for prosthetic training.